Friday, October 24, 2014

Buckets of Tears

Dear friends, I was injured unexpectedly and by a
kid going the wrong way against the arrows. I met
him at the disposition, and I listened to him "lie". His
grandad was Mayor of the town. He was in grandad's
truck! The attorney asked if there was anything I 
wanted to ask him? I said just one thing "did you 
every think, about me just once in the past two 
years, he said "no lady", I never gave you a second
thought!" My son was very angry at the kid for a long
time. He now realizes he probably already paid for what
he did many times over, some way. We all know life is
not fair but it is more evil when people that hurt us simply
not caring. This Fl election took back 25 years to a hurt
I had from a 16 year old who backed over me not caring.
I have seen money do great evil and I can see where
it can do so much more good. It is feeling that someone
was evil enough to ignore people's lives in the name of
greed.I believe that is how this continued war on healing
on this healing plant started in the first place! Be a friend,
and share with a friend. I walked with uncontrolled seizures
for 23 years. That caused, unimaginable damage, family loss
and buckets of tears. I just wish I had known, but I did not
have the information! Together, we have taken a stand
patients FIRST! Today I am seizure free: We need medical 

cannabis access globally!

Debbie M. Wilson

WE CAN PRETEND


WE CAN PRETEND



I am watching your face,
I listen closely to your words.
I think I know the answer,
But I wait and watch ; just in case.

Friends all say that I look the same,
They say that must mean I am fine.
I smile and nod and play the game,
It is easier to just pretend.

But the truth is I must try very hard,
Or they will know I am not the same.
They are fearful of that knowledge,
So I continue to play the game.

Their ignorance makes me angry,
Although I try not to let it show.
But they make me feel defensive,
There is so much they don’t know. 

As friends and loved ones protect themselves,
I have been forced  to play the game.
I wish you could love me unconditionally,
And quit expecting me to be the same.

It just seems that if you had my injury,
I wouldn’t ask you to be a star.
I would be thankful for our time together,
I would accept you for who you are.

You see I was searching for acceptance,
But it has eluded me for many years.
It was hard for me to accept my changes,
While I was busy calming your fears.

by: Debbie Wilson
    3-20-96
 
Dedicated to my siblings that I love 
dearly and know you miss the "old" me
I was chosen to do some thing new,
I am sorry we had this family tragedy,
But I do know you would be proud if you 
knew the "new" me. We all paid quite a fee.
We were chosen to walk with a different point of view.
The view is either ugly or you can enjoy the becoming new.
The choice is always up to me and you. 
We were chosen to walk with a truth seeker point of view.

Beat Down

Beat Down

We get beat down,
We don’t think we can do another round,
We stop we take a deep, deep breathe,
We remember we don’t stay down on the ground! 
We get beat down,
We don’t think anyone takes us serious, 
We feel like we are the sad joke like the saddest of all clowns,
We can smile and you will never know what got us beat down.
We don’t necessarily act unhappy or carry around a sad frown.
We just figure out how to go forward in a harsh world hand in hand.
We know who we are we sense each other everywhere we are those
That care we don’t like it when life is not fair! 
We try to intervene but there is just so much we can do. We got hurt too. 
We have a unique and more gentle view but we have no trust for most.
We have to search from coast to coast and then we found relief
We get beat down,
We don’t think we can do another round,
We stop we take a deep, deep breathe,
We remember we don’t stay down on the ground! 

Debbie M. Wilson 

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Dear friends, I have a nerve healing update:


Dear friends, I have a nerve healing update: First I do not
throw the word healing around I am both a brain injury and
spinal injury survivor. The nerve root pressure I have is C-3-
C-6. It was radiating nerve pain across my shoulders and down
both arms. I had mentioned having some sensation in my hands 
for the first time, this nerve healing, is starting to allow me to use
my arms with out inflaming the nerves or it causing any of the
usual shooting expected nerve pain. My nerve damage is healing.
I am really speechless. Medical cannabis is needed for all
neurology disorders, for many of us this is the greatest NEWS
We have heard since we were injured or diseased! 

The following video is that of Debbie Maynard Wilson Class of 1971 and our Home Coming Queen!

Dear CHS Friends,
The following video is that of Debbie Maynard Wilson Class of 1971 and our Home Coming Queen! Listen to her story and I hope you can appreciate the benefit that medical cannabis has on patients with Epilepsy, Parkinson's Disease, MS, and other brain injury diseases such as ALS. Personally, members of my immediate family including myself suffer from Epilepsy, Parkinson's Disease and MS as well as one of our own CHS classmates Rick Durst suffers from ALS. I hold a Masters Degree in Biology and Medical Science from Marshall University. During my course of education I studied biology, botany (plants), zoology (animals), ichthyology (fish) and pharmacological and herbal medicine. I studied and researched as a part of my thesis the use of cannabis, hemp, herbs, spices and other natural medicines that I found as used by the American Indian "medicine" cures. It might be noted that a large percentage of drugs we use today are derivatives of plants and herbs. Cannabis is just one such plant that holds healing properties that promote the re-transmission of neural "signals" in the brain. Some drugs such as hydrocodone, oxycodone, morphine, methadone are pharmacologically derived from opium (a plant) and work to decrease the neural signals to brain causing the body to react to pain. These are classified as narcotic analgesics. I sold narcotic analgesics as a pharmaceutical rep for 15 years. I'm sure there are a vast number of you who have benefited from the use of those drugs. They are controlled by the DEA and can be legally obtained by a doctors prescription. Are they abused?? YES.. but they are obtained legally for the relief of pain. The type of cannabis we are faced with approving on Amendment 2 is CBD and would be obtained and controlled legally just as we obtain our controlled drugs, with a doctors approval. CBD does not have the addictive or hallucinogenic properties that THC cannabis has. I could go on to explain to you more but after reading the bill the political and social side of the debate but it would exhaust me. Knowing the properties and actions of CBD cannabis has on the patients in dire need of such healing properties it would be a transitivity not to allow those to have it. I am sure this video will cause the arousal a significant amount of debate among mine and others Facebook page but Debbie's Story as well as others story must get out. God made this plant for a reason. Just as He made other plants and animals for the sustainment of life. Shouldn't those of our friends, loved ones and fellow citizens be allowed to legal obtain medical cannabis for the benefit of healing?http://www.medicaljane.com/2014/02/24/the-story-of-debbie-wilson-how-cannabis-helped-her-treat-trauma-induced-epilepsy/--

All In a Brain Injury


All In a Brain Injury
We have memory problems.We have concentration difficulties.We have sensory deficits like blurred vision, ringing in the ears or a bad taste in our mouths. We can have loss of sensation and feeling. We can have headaches. Many of us have loss of balance. We can have light sensitivity.We can also have noise sensitivity. We tend to have mood changes. We tend to become depressed or anxious. We may have chronic fatigue. We may have sleep disorders. We may be confused. We may have speech and hearing deficits. We may lose judgement and reasoning abilities.We may stay angry a very long time. We are usually not sure who or what we are angry about. The truth is we do not know ourselves anymore! We are usually the last to know or realize the extent of our injuries.Many of us also have PTSD. Others of us have seizures. Please, if you see our symptoms, help get us the help we need. We need support, encouragement and hope. We need faith that wecan overcome our many deficits. We need immense understanding as we lost "ourselves." It is difficult to again find our way. Our futures are full of unknowns and extremely hard work. We are like a brand new person, starting all over again.None of us wanted to start all over again. We may be resistant and we may deny, deny and deny.We need nurturing and we need guidance to again find our way. We are unique in every way.What the brain is able to again do will astound even those that do not believe in miracles. We are survivors in a special league. Many of us had experienced loss of family and loved ones prior to brain injury. These loses were heart breaking and hard to accept. They did not prepare us for the total and complete loss we have felt as a result of our "loss of self!" We are brothers and sisters as a result of the uniqueness of our loss. We believe we are the only ones that can truly understand the magnitude of our loss. Together we are stronger, and we learn tips that help us move forward. Please be kind and patient with us. If you have not experienced loss of self it is very hard to comprehend. Please just sympathize and empathize with our loss. We are a group that has a tendency to far surpass anyones expectations or dreams. We are the "ultimate survivors" in every sense of our existence! We were chosen and are all an honor and a blessing to know! Most of us are not yet aware that medical cannabis is what we need access to in order to continue to heal, grow and even protect! We are told we had NO hope! I just need access to medical cannabis the greatest HOPE for brain injury, epilepsy and Dementia and Alzheimer's in our HISTORY!

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

IT IS NOTHING


IT IS NOTHING




I am pouring my coffee,
I feel my face tingling.
It will be alright, it is nothing.
I see my coffee cup,
I must concentrate.
I don’t seem to be able to pour this cup.
Of course I can.
Concentrate, concentrate.
Alright, look at the cup
Slowly, slowly,
Good girl you did it.
It will be alright, it is nothing.
I hear, but everyone is talking from a distance,
Listen better.
Concentrate concentrate.
Good girl you did it.
I hear you,
I just can’t quite understand.
Say it again,
I will get it this time.
I am confused,
What was I saying?  What did you say?
Concentrate concentrate.
Oh no!
I feel like I am dropping in the well.
I don’t want to go in the well.
The well is far feels far away from you.
I must concentrate.
Everyone sounds so far away.
I am trying so hard to stay.
It will be alright, it is nothing.
I’m sorry, I can’t hold on.
I must leave for a few minutes,
But I’ll come back, just hold on.
Don’t be frightened, don’t be sad.
I will be alright, it is nothing.
I’m sorry.
Please don’t treat me differently.
I really am like you,
I just go in the well sometimes.
I’m alright I will concentrate.
Next time it will be different,
Next time I won’t have to leave.
I must concentrate.
It will be alright, it is nothing.

by: Debbie Wilson
    2-16-96
PS. I was right 
I am finally seizure free in 2014, 
thanks to medical cannabis.