Tuesday, September 30, 2014



The real reason we are called survivor’s  is because we 
survive unparalleled misunderstanding and disbelief. 
Pain, confusion, and misinformation has been thrown at 
us on a continuous basis without any kind of relief.

The diagnostic testing  rarely shows the magnitude of 
our problem or families may be wrongly offered  no hope 
at all. Some families and friends may prefer to pretend  
there is not a problem Friends we thought we could count 
on suddenly have no time to call. 

If friends and family are unable to validate our changes
We begin to wonder what is real?
Once we became aware of the confusion around us,
We had to question if anyone really cared how we feel.


I was always deserving of your honesty,
I never asked for your pretense, false hopes or dreams.
I was frantically searching for my limitations,
And you confused me with all of your schemes.

You see in the process of trying to help me, 
In the best way you knew how.
You accidentally crushed and shattered  my spirit, 
And more heart-break  I refuse to allow.

Your lack of understanding was based on lack of knowledge,
And problems that you were unable to see.
But I won’t allow  your ignorance,
To continue to hurt and devastate me.

I choose to deal only with those that can be fair to me.
I  have a disability, but did not lose my freedom of choice.
I can still fight for what is just and fair,
Don’t assume my disability has made me lose my voice.

My recovery is my own personal battle,
I will let no one stand in my way. 
I will live my life with dignity,
And this is how I choose to begin each day.

by: Debbie Wilson

Monday, September 29, 2014

Cannabis Restores Memory and Brain Function after 22 Year Old Injury

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‘Twenty-two years ago, Debbie Wilson was struck down in the parking lot of a fast food restaurant by a driver in a pick-up truck. Upon impact, she was knocked to the ground head first, and then the driver inadvertently backed up over her.
This accident was the beginning of her 22-year journey into unbearable darkness, despair, and disability. She initially struggled with common traumatic brain injury symptoms including forgetfulness, migraines, nightmares, time distortion, depression, paranoia, anxiety, and balance problems.
Several years later, Debbie was diagnosed with epilepsy and suffered from seizures, PTSD, Alzheimer’s, chronic depression, anxiety, and Type 2 diabetes. A cocktail of pharmaceuticals proved ineffective while causing numerous deleterious side effects including damage to her intestines.
A last-ditch effort to find some relief, Debbie was desperate enough to give cannabis a try in 2010. Within weeks of smoking cannabis, Debbie noticed a significant improvement in her symptoms. Yet, it wasn’t until Debbie began to orally ingest a non-psychoactive cannabis medicine or “NeuroEnhancer” (22% CBD 1% THC oil) along with a high-THC strain of cannabis for her epilepsy that she experienced the miraculous healing benefits of cannabis.
Debbie stated: “I know for a fact that I’m now accessing file drawers in my memory bank that were shut for more than 20 years. My story has not ended yet, I’ve been able to retire my seizure alert dog, my helmet, my diapers and over a dozen central nervous system depressants, pain relievers and antidepressants. So many areas of my body have been helped that it’s not even like I’m the same person.”
Scientific Studies Support Debbie’s Anecdotal Experience
Researchers from Tel Aviv University in Israel recently published a cannabis study in the Journal of Neuroscience Research. Their findings indicate that low doses of cannabinoids, in particular ultra-low-dose tetrahydrocannabinol (THC), exerts a protective effect against cognitive deficits from brain inflammation.
The goal of the Israeli researchers, led by Miriam Fishbein-Kaminietsky, PhD, was to discover if low-dose THC could protect the brain from cognitive deficits after lab-induced brain inflammation. The researchers decided to do an in vivo lab study with mice that they injected with “10 mg/kg of lipopolysccharide (LPS),” which is known to cause brain inflammation.
Additionally, the mice were injected with “0.002 mg/kg of THC either 48 hours before LPS treatment or 1-7 days after LPS treatment.” The rationale behind the protocol was to determine whether the timing of the THC dose could protect the mice brains from induced brain inflammation. Three weeks after the injections, the mice were tested.
Fishbein-Kaminietsky said of the study’s results, “An ultra-low dose of THC that lacks any psychotropic activity protects the brain from neuroinflammation-induced cognitive damage.”
The study clearly demonstrated that, although LPS causes brain inflammation, which results in chronic cognitive debilitation, the introduction of THC either before or after injection with LPS prevented inflammation-induced cognitive deficits. In other words, THC acted as both a preventive as well as a remedy against brain inflammation.
The study suggests that minuscule doses of THC can prevent and heal cognitive deficits resulting from brain inflammation and other neurodegenerative diseases like Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s.
A prior study from Brazil reported that cannabidiol (CBD) “could help ward off neuronal cell death in the face of neurodegradation,” according to Medical Jane.
This is all good news for older patients who often fear the “high” associated with THC.’
Article by Paul Fassa – Natural Society
- See more at: http://yournewswire.com/cannabis-restores-memory-and-brain-function-after-22-year-old-injury/#sthash.tcVtgeIl.dpuf



Before I met you,
I was filled with loneliness, and disdain.
Before I met you,
I could not find my way out of all this pain.
Before I met you,
my internal pressure felt like it might never flee.
Before I met you,
I felt like I was in a life raft drowning in a raging sea.
Before I met you,
I had lost my self confidence, self esteem and sense of me.
Before I met you,
I had lost my sense of who I was, you taught me to again see.
Before I met you,
I could not find nearly all my brain's missing puzzle pieces.

Before I met you,
I couldn't see how the puzzle pieces could possibly be completed.
Before I met you,
I didn't realize that support helps overcome just about any feat.

Debbie M. Wilson 

Sunday, September 28, 2014

Depression Be Gone

Depression Be Gone

Depression, be gone with you,
I prefer a happy point of view.
I'll try not to get sad,
I'll try not to get mad.
I'll try not to feel anxious,
I'll try not to put up a fuss.
I'll try not to feel so empty,
I prefer not to continue wasting this fee.
Depression, be gone with you,
I prefer a happy point of view.
I'll try not to feel hopeless,
I'll remind myself of every reason to do my very best.
I'll try not to ever feel alone,
I prefer you sow your own seeds and supervise others get sown.
Try not to ever feel hurt,
depression and heartache can cause us all to act curt.

Depression, be gone with you,
I prefer a happy point of view.

Debbie M. Wilson 

Saturday, September 27, 2014

Self Esteem

Self Esteem

Self esteem I seemed to have misplaced you,
and you and I used to have such a great view.
My self confidence seems to have totally eluded me to,
I am determined to find you and hang out the way we use to do.
I understand that "loss of self" is very difficult and sad,
I didn't understand that loss of "me" was most of what we had.
When "who we are" is instantly and tragically stripped away,
we know longer comprehend how to be happy, peaceful or gay.
We are still striving hard to feel independent and not in the way.
Please be patient, one day the skies will no longer seem to be so gray.

Debbie M. Wilson

"Esteem" redirects here. For the car model, see Suzuki Esteem.
Self-esteem is a term used in sociology and psychology to reflect a person's overall emotional evaluation of his or her own worth. It is a judgment of oneself as well as an attitude toward the self. Self-esteem encompasses beliefs (for example, "I am competent," "I am worthy") and emotions such as triumphdespair,pride and shame.[1] Smith and Mackie define it by saying "The self-concept is what we think about the self; self-esteem, is the positive or negative evaluations of the self, as in how we feel about it."[2]:107 Self-esteem is also known as the evaluative dimension of the self that includes feelings of worthiness, prides and discouragement.[3] One's self-esteem is also closely associated with self-consciousness.[4]
Self-esteem is a disposition that a person has which represents their judgments of their own worthiness.[5] In the mid-1960s, sociologist Morris Rosenberg defined self-esteem as a feeling of self-worth and developed the Rosenberg self-esteem scale (RSES), which became the most-widely used scale to measure self-esteem in the social sciences.[6] Nathaniel Branden in 1969 defined self-esteem as "the experience of being competent to cope with the basic challenges of life and being worthy of happiness." According to Branden, self-esteem is the sum of self-confidence (a feeling of personal capacity) and self-respect (a feeling of personal worth). It exists as a consequence of the implicit judgment that every person has of their ability to face life's challenges, to understand and solve problems, and their right to achieve happiness, and be given respect.[7]
As a social psychological construct, self-esteem is attractive because researchers have conceptualized it as an influential predictor of relevant outcomes, such as academic achievement[8] or exercise behavior (Hagger et al. 1998)[full citation needed]. In addition, self-esteem has also been treated as an important outcome due to its close relation with psychological well-being (Marsh 1989)[full citation needed]. Self-esteem can apply specifically to a particular dimension (for example, "I believe I am a good writer and I feel happy about that") or a global extent (for example, "I believe I am a bad person, and feel bad about myself in general"). Psychologists usually regard self-esteem as an enduring personality characteristic ("trait" self-esteem), though normal, short-term variations ("state" self-esteem) also exist. Synonyms or near-synonyms of self-esteem include: self-worth,[9] self-regard,[10] self-respect,[11][12] and self-integrity.

Tips For Overcoming Depression

Tips For Overcoming Depression 

Practice Mindfulness:
Mindfulness involves focusing on the present moment and is a skill that needs to be practiced. More often than not, our brains are full of thoughts and focusing on the present moment seems unnatural for our minds. Practice on engaging your senses in the moment. Focus on touch, taste, sight, sound and smell. Engaging the senses leaves less time for worry.

Listen to Upbeat Music:
An upbeat tune can change an atmosphere instantly and create a more positive vibe. Listening to upbeat, happy music alters brain chemistry and can improve your mood.

Use Touch:
Science shows that touch therapies can help some people overcome depression, lower the stress hormone cortisol and increase the feel-good hormone oxytocin. Therapies to consider include acupuncture, acupressure, massage, reiki and reflexology.

Include Omega 3's in Diet:
Research has shown that depressed people often lack a fatty acid known as EPA. Participants in a 2002 study featured in the Archives of General Psychiatry took just a gram of fish oil each day and noticed a 50-percent decrease in symptoms such as anxiety, sleep disorders, unexplained feelings of sadness, suicidal thoughts, and decreased sex drive.

Stop Negative Self Talk
Depression reinforces self doubt and feelings of worthlessness. Monitor your inner negative talk and make allowances for this type of thinking by reminding yourself that your thinking is that of a depressed person, not a healthy functioning person. Don’t take your thoughts seriously when you are feeling low. Acknowledge the thoughts but this doesn’t mean you have to believe them. Keep perspective.

Distract Yourself:

During depression, we tend to see the negatives in everything and find it harder to be balanced about what is going on. Gently remind yourself that you are tuned into the ‘negativity channel’ and don’t listen to your thinking. It is definitely distorted when you are depressed. This idea alone can provide some comfort when the world appears bleak. It won’t last forever. Remind yourself that change is constant and that you won’t always feel this way.

A journal can work in two ways. Use it to write down fears and worries. Sometimes, having an outlet in this way can be soothing and ease your mind. Another good way to use a journal (I prefer this way) is to write at least five things down every day that you are grateful for. This forces us to think more positively and can help to remind us that things are never that bad. In a gratitude journal, you can write about anything that happened in the day that made you feel appreciative.

Connect With Friends
This can be one of the hardest things to do when feeling depressed but it is one of the most rewarding activities. Force yourself to go out. Isolating oneself from others may seem a good idea but put a limit on it and then get out there again. This can have a huge positive effect on your mood.

When we hold a grudge, we are the ones that feel the anger. The person whom we are angry with is probably merrily going about their business completely oblivious to your feelings. Don’t allow others to have this power over you. They have may have caused you grief in the past, try not to allow that grief to continue – it only affects you, not them. Find a way to forgive – they are not worthy of your time. Lighten the emotional load and you will improve your mood and help you to overcome depression.

Regular exercise has benefits for helping to overcome depression. Exercise releases endorphins which improve natural immunity and improve mood. Besides lifting your mood, regular exercise offers other health benefits, such as lowering blood pressure, protecting against heart disease, cancer and boosting self-esteem. Experts advise getting half an hour to an hour of moderate exercise, such as brisk walking at least three to four times per week.

Don't Give Up:
Depression can make you want to hide away from the world and disappear. It’s okay to take some time out but give yourself a time limit and then do something productive to improve your mood. Depression can be well managed (I know this from personal experience) and there can be a wonderful life beyond depression. Hang in there and keep the faith.


Brain Injury Reality

Brain Injury Reality

Brain injury did not come to us with any warning at all.
Brain injury will be our furthest most "out of control" fall.
Brain injury is the hardest thing we will ever have to do.
Brain injury taught us to do our best we are among the very few.

Brain injury did not come with any rules or regulations.
Most of us just do the best we can figuring this new life out as we go. 
There was no guide after brain injury for us to take our first steps.
Brain injury did not come with an instruction manual or any map.
Brain injury was invisible and some of us fell through the cracks.
Brain injury was invisible and hard so treat so not many had our backs. 
Brain injury can often make us better, stronger and more compassionate 
people too.

Debbie M. Wilson